my life.
Today I binged !!!!!!!! … and purged until just water was coming out I was doing so good im such a failure in life. :( i just wont eat anymore I’m actually terrified to eat one more bite. Tomorrow I’m going out and I know I’m going to drink so I will not eat at all and then drink … and get low calorie drinks and then pass out . what a life.
Today..
Today I ate A small romaine salad that consisted of corn, broccoli, diced tomatoes and bits of grilled chicken and it had a speck of low fat ranch. It has such little dressing I could barely taste it. I wasn’t going to put meat or dressing but I figured it was the only thing I was going to eat the whole day, so might as well spoil myself a bit. I ate at 11 am and I’m getting hungry.. but I wont give up I wont be a failure I wont quite. Yes I’ll be skinny if it kills me. Just watch me.
today..
One mango
Diet coke
Diet pills
Thats it ! I dont care if I die of hunger I have 2 weeks and 2 days to loose atleast 10 pounds for my 21st birthday i would prefer 15 but lets see! Ive lost so much control i gain and lose gain and lose gain and lose. I have a serious problem fuck food! its driving me fucking insane.
